Thanks to my travels last month, I have backslid ENTIRELY. I have not been on my bike in about 34 days.
I thought while I was in India, I'd use the exercise room at my in-laws' apartment complex, but that would've involved an escort, and it was too damned hot and humid for me to consider expending any additional energy.
While In India, I did manage to get an aryuvedic massage at the ashram I was staying at in Kumbakonam; and I later went to an aryuvedic doctor in Madras to hopefully get some solution/s to my chronic pains. So there's that--I managed to do SOMETHING towards my goals, but in the meantime I backslid entirely.
Then there was Thanksgiving, and work, and no real amount of downtime for me to recover from everything, and here I am 34 days and no bike.
I've set two alarms: one in the evening with a reminder SLEEP HYGIENE! to hopefully motivate me to get out of my heated zero gravity chair and brush my teeth and take my meds and set up some things for the following day, and hopefully get into bed by a decent time (no such luck--I ignore this alarm every damned night); and one in the morning at 6 a.m., hoping one day I'll just "Five Second Rule" myself out of bed and onto my bike.
Couple all this up with the fact I haven't talked to my therapist since the third week of October, and since he's going through chemo it is doubtful/unlikely/uncertain when (if at all) I will speak with him again before the year is out.
But come January, I will be seeking out a new therapist to hopefully help me work through and manage my schemas, and hopefully help me with my mindset.
That all said, despite not getting out of bed this morning, I did manage to hit the snooze alarm--and I used my resistance bands and started back into THAT routine. Hopefully I'll be motivated tomorrow to do it too. And with any luck, maybe Saturday I'll get back on the bike. Maybe.
I thought while I was in India, I'd use the exercise room at my in-laws' apartment complex, but that would've involved an escort, and it was too damned hot and humid for me to consider expending any additional energy.
While In India, I did manage to get an aryuvedic massage at the ashram I was staying at in Kumbakonam; and I later went to an aryuvedic doctor in Madras to hopefully get some solution/s to my chronic pains. So there's that--I managed to do SOMETHING towards my goals, but in the meantime I backslid entirely.
Then there was Thanksgiving, and work, and no real amount of downtime for me to recover from everything, and here I am 34 days and no bike.
I've set two alarms: one in the evening with a reminder SLEEP HYGIENE! to hopefully motivate me to get out of my heated zero gravity chair and brush my teeth and take my meds and set up some things for the following day, and hopefully get into bed by a decent time (no such luck--I ignore this alarm every damned night); and one in the morning at 6 a.m., hoping one day I'll just "Five Second Rule" myself out of bed and onto my bike.
Couple all this up with the fact I haven't talked to my therapist since the third week of October, and since he's going through chemo it is doubtful/unlikely/uncertain when (if at all) I will speak with him again before the year is out.
But come January, I will be seeking out a new therapist to hopefully help me work through and manage my schemas, and hopefully help me with my mindset.
That all said, despite not getting out of bed this morning, I did manage to hit the snooze alarm--and I used my resistance bands and started back into THAT routine. Hopefully I'll be motivated tomorrow to do it too. And with any luck, maybe Saturday I'll get back on the bike. Maybe.
