Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Might be gettin' offa da dope

Been on "dope-a-max" since July.
August: Lost 6 lbs
November: Gained 4 lbs
No considerable weight loss IMHO to justify being on this for weight loss purposes.
The 24/7 lethargy is not a good trade off for the 1-2 debilitating migraines I was having per month.

When I see the neuro at the end of December, I'm going to consider getting off the junk.

I'm so ambivalent, I can hardly function.

Not so much ennui anymore, it's evolved into "Shititis." As in... I could give a shit-itis.

ReproEndo guy counselled me on Fatty Liver Syndrome and N.A.S.H. Trying to scare me straight to dump off the weight. Nutritionist... trainer... ya ya ya. I'm made of bucks, don'tchaknow.

I started taking spirulina tablets (on my own), and drinking a few glugs of a B-vitamin packed berry smoothie (non dairy) before leaving the house in the a.m., feebly attempting to get something natural in me.

The days I am "noncompliant" with the dopamax... I feel somewhat more human.

It's dragging me down, and I don't know how much more of this I can stand.