New Year--Same Old Shit

I stood up this a.m., looked at this little altar I have in my bedroom. The altar has an antique crucifix of my great-grandmother's, a tiny ganesha statuette from my in-laws, a picture of my in-laws, a small stone that says "happiness," a string of mala prayer beads my cousin gave me as a wedding present (six years ago), and a little "god mother" amulet from my sister & niece.

I took a deep breath and said, "I am worthless."