Friday, September 16, 2022

Day 64

Wow! 64 days since my surgery, and it has been a while since my last update. 

I’m still working from home & doing two  PT appointments per week. I am managing 2000-3000 foot steps each day. 

“Neuro-muscular re-education” is the goal. As many foot steps as I am doing, I am still unable to lift and cross my leg to put my socks on. 

Had my follow up with the neuropsychologist regarding my psych eval. Finally got a diagnosis. Unsurprisingly, it is C-PTSD (complex ptsd). PTSD is often only a singular event (like 9/11 for example), whereas complex ptsd is a steady diet of trauma.  

Apparently my cognitive abilities & language aptitude was classified as superior.

Surprisingly, I wasn’t diagnosed as autistic. Apparently the uncertainty & worry I have regarding “how long is too long to have a conversation,” and my belief that most people just are too polite to stop me, actually is not autism, but self awareness. And given how self-aware I am, that also ruled out narcissistic personality disorders. 

My problem is I have a great capacity for language. I don’t engage in small talk—which actually bores me. Too many people operate on the surface, whereas I operate from a place of depth. I overwhelm people. 

So next step for me will be a consult with a psychiatrist to explore medication options, and line up a therapist who specializes in trauma based therapy. 

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